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Let’s get physical…physical
As part of my journey/trek, I started working out. In the gym 2-3 times weekly and playing soccer (indoor and out) 2-3 times weekly. I walk the dogs pretty much every day. I started it as a way to lose weight but now am doing it to feel better about myself. I jokingly asked the…
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Whoooooo are you? I really wanna know
There is a tradition in AA of anonymity. It is, in fact, right there in the name. Early on in my recovery I thought that was so I could have my little issue all on my own and nobody else would ever need to know. I mean, other than those people ‘in the rooms’…and my…
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Tell me why?…I don’t like mondays…
There is a Buddhist ‘ideal’ that I find intriguing “Unlearn something everyday.” Our lives are a series of conditioned calls and responses. Something I’ve heard called the “cognitive response cycle”: basically, experience-learn-have emotional response-‘feel’ about it-have behavioral response-witness consequences-experience…etc, etc. The idea of ‘unlearning’ something is intriguing to me because I want to have a…
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Love is about the changes you make and not just three small words…
Over the past 18+ months I’ve come to several stark, painful and needed conclusions. I’ve written (ad nauseam, I know) about my change in viewing the universe and the events that occur…not to me but that affect my ego and my comfort. One of the more difficult transitions has been my relationship with my wife.…
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What are words for?…
I often think about conversation. Not just ones that I have had and anticipate having, but I watch others having conversations . I watch their mannerisms and see if the people involved have a ‘stereotype.’ I can’t hear what they are saying most of the time, but the way the dynamic unfolds is interesting to…
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S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y Night!
A quick hitter this evening. Has been a long day and I have very little on my mind. Had one incident that I need to work better on dealing with. We went out to dinner on Saturday night. There was an option for a 4 course meal that looked very good. Neither my wife or…
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Vacation…all I ever wanted…
Taking weekend off with my wife in New Westminster, BC. Back on Monday.
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Good, Good, Good…Good Vibrations…
I’m looking out at trees in early plumage. The buds of early April have started to open and the explosion of color is amazing. Renewal. Rebirth. Rejuvenation. I’d love to say that my ‘good’ mood is down to the weather but it isn’t that simple. I’m not ‘cautiously optimistic’ but that is the closest I…
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So true, funny how it seems, always in line, but never mine for dreams….
Rather than focus on the rather topsy-turvy and emotional early weekend I’m going to work on sussing out my emerging philosophy some more. My wife and I had an exchange where she insisted there was a ‘truth’ in an experience. While I don’t agree there is an absolute truth (that we can perceive, anyway) I…
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Heigh ho, heigh ho, heigh ho! We’re going to the punk Rock Show!
To be fair I’ve been looking for a lyric that captures what my internal turmoil is this morning. A deep feeling of inadequacy, failure and melancholy. Like I’m moving through life as through treacle. When I’m in such a mood I turn to hard driving rock…neo-punk and Frank Turner fits that bill. My wife was…